men are assholes
i know exactly what you mean. i can’t say anything about a certain Orchestra teacher, because i don’t have his class, but i can totally back you up about a certain History teacher.
when we were going around and having teachers sign off on our schedule, he decides to put up a fight when i say i want AP next year. we spend about 15 minutes going back and forth about whether or not i should have AP. i want AP lang really bad, because honors is way too easy for me, and i know i can handle AP SS next year, because the majority of my other classes are easy for me (AP lang included). eventually i talk him into letting me into AP, and he signs off on it.
unfortunately, he decides to go behind my back and tell the guys in charge of the scheduling that he made a mistake and i should be in honors next year.
i spent the rest of the week repeatedly telling them, “no, i want AP. A-freaking-P.”
he treats certain other kids like crap, too. he’s so biased when it comes to students. and he doesn’t even bother to hide it.
well, some men are. two men in particular. one of them teaches U.S. History. one of them teaches Orchestra. both hate me for no good reason. it is a power-trip for them. they see me as a rebel, a threat to their authority, so they force me to do illogical things to show they are in charge. but they can’t force me to like them or respect them, which they want to do. i do not respect those who do not respect me. little do they know they will never be truly in charge. people who are truly in charge don’t have to force obedience and false respect. their authority arises from their position, not from their character or personality. if they have to prove they are in charge by manipulating me then i must be in charge. makes me feel better. :)
a certain U.S. History teacher hates me because of a long list of mental abrasions. he left a bad impression on me, and i kinda pushed his authority because i didn’t respect him. he felt insecure and pegged me as a “bad kid,” and tried to make life difficult for me so that i would back down. haha, bad idea buddy. “R-E-S-P-E-C-T, find out what it means to me.” i sure as hell won’t respect someone who kicks me down just because he can. he also overstepped himself when he accused me of playing up being sick. he took it to the administration. i wasn’t playing it up, i was actually sick. so that finally snapped the tension a bit. since then we stay out of each other’s way.
until today. i needed to print out something for language arts. i know from experience that if i ask the certain teacher whether i can print something, he says no. anybody else asks and he says yes. so i just go ahead and print because i really really needed those pages. i have money so i didn’t think it would be a problem. i print, i hand him the money, he says he can’t make change. liar. oh well. so i ask him if i can pay tomorrow. he smiles smugly, obviously glad of the opportunity to “show me my place.” then he says no, that i have to get some change from someone. so i waste 15 minutes of my precious time printing and getting change.
then there is the certain Orchestra teacher. i am good at Orchestra. i could sight-read my piece perfectly and my instrument is always in tune by the time class starts. i wanted to spend my time working on my language arts project while everyone else tunes. but again, the certain teacher has to prove his authority. he made me put my poster all the way against the wall far out of reach. then i learn over the course of the class period that my section only plays for about a total of 15 minutes that class period. basically i sat there and did absolutely nothing for the better part of an hour. because another teacher has to “show me my place.”
yeah, really smart guys. be a totally illogical dick and i will respect your authority more. NOT. for those of you who don’t know me well: i respect people based on their character, personality, or aptitude. if you try to force me to respect you by being an asshole, i will do the exact opposite. i hate people who are patronizing and illogical. i hate people who are unfair. i hate people who are deliberate dicks because i look like a bad kid. if you treat me like a good kid, i will be a good kid. you treat me like a bad kid, and i will be a bad kid. respect me, and i’ll respect you. disrespect me, and… yeah, you get the point.
i just really needed to vent because both of these guys hit my pet peeve within the same afternoon. one day i will be making 10 times their salary, and then they get to kiss my ass. i’m about tired of kissing the asses of these two jerks. but i will never be in their class again after this year. thank god.
